Dream February 23, 2008

I’ve been having a lot of symbolic dreams lately.  I usually don’t dream at all.. not that I can remember anyway. And the interpretation of dreams interests me a lot, and they’re always right!

Anyway, I dreamed that a stranger came to town, and he was very odd and didn’t really talk. Then everyone in town was locked up in cages and I was walking past and they were trying to grab me. I followed the stranger and we ended up watching a movie, I don’t remember what was in the movie, but it was a really sad movie and I was crying, and I had that lump in my throat like for most of the dream. Then me and the stranger started talking about different movies, and then he let me borrow some movies. Then we put on a play of our own, I wasn’t really in it, I was.. but none of the characters were me.. lol anyway, my nephew Billy Jr was in it, and then the stranger was the main character. Again, I don’t remember what it was about. I remember a baby being in both the movie and the play though actually.

And then the next thing I know I’m at one of mine and Tyson’s friends, Natalie’s house. And she was sleeping, and I was sleeping on the top bunk and dreaming (didn’t show any of the dream) and then an alarm went off, and Natalie’s husband was going to work, and it was still dark cause it was so early. And then he wanted to go back to bed and asked Natalie for his alarm but she was sleeping so I went in the other room and got him the alarm. (sorry this is probably the most uneventful part of the dream lol)

Anyway, I looked up all of the main points on dreammoods.com and I couldn’t find anything about people being locked up in cages, only me, or an animal, however I’m sure that is an important part.

The stranger is part of myself that is repressed.

Crying is a release of negative emotions that is caused by my waking life rather than the dream itself. It said that your dream is to regain some emotional balance. I haven’t cried in a long time, but there’s nothing I can really think of that I want to cry about. It said in our daily life we ignore and suppress our feelings, but in our dreams we are no longer defensive.

Watching a move is to watch your life pass. I can relate to this one definitely. It wasn’t very long ago that I thought I wouldn’t ever get married, or that it seemed thousands of years away. I’m no longer a teenager, I’m finally an adult, and it feels like it came really fast.

Playing a role in a play, there wasn’t anything on playing in a PLAY, but watching a play and watching a movie were basically the same thing so I looked up playing in a movie. And it says to dream that you’re playing a role in a movie foretells that something in your subconscious is about to emerge or be revealed. It may also represent memories or scenes of your past. Alternatively, the dream may be pointing you toward a new role that you might be undertaking. Your unconscious is a psychologically preparing you for this new role. That part could possibly be my new role as wife soon? I don’t know. Or maybe I need to make a change in myself. There are a lot of things I’m stressed about, they’re all little things, but this could be several things in my life.

Alarm, to hear or pull an alarm in  your dream suggests that you are experiencing a conflict in a relationship or situation. You may be questioning the decisions you have made. The alarm really wasn’t a big part in my dream, maybe it was insignificant, but it was out of place, so I don’t know. I can’t think of anything that fits.

Wait! Alarm bell fits a little better I think: To hear an alarm bell in your sleep, signifies a situation that is giving you much anxiety. This situation may arise unexpectedly where you are then required to spring into action.

To see bunk beds in your dream, represents childhood and innocence. Alternatively, it may refer to diverging and conflicting views of sexuality. You may have difficulties expressing your needs and desires.

To dream that you are dreaming, signifies your emotional state. You are excessively worried and fearful about a situation or circumstance that you are going through.

  To dream that it is morning, denotes that fortune and pleasure are within near reach. It may also denotes new beginnings, renewal, an awakening or starting over.

So.. after interpreting everything, they all relate to each other.  And parts may not really fit in so well, but overall I think I’m stressing out about the wedding because its only 3 1/2 months away and we haven’t done anything.

Forwarding… December 20, 2007

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Change of Plans November 15, 2007

So incase I haven’t told everyone yet, Tyson and I changed plans for our wedding. We were just getting really stressed out cause we’re spending all of our money on a backyard wedding. Tyson doesn’t even like weddings, and it just didn’t seem really worth the money. Besides for that, neither of us like either family, so spending all this money to please people we don’t even care about didn’t make much sense. Anyway, so we decided to do something a little more worth our money, and a lot more fun and memorable for Tyson and me. So we decided we’re going to get married on a cruise ship! =) We’re going to go on a cruise to the Carribeans, and then we’re going to come home and have a reception. Just a very casual small gathering. just so everyone can see me in my pretty dress and so we can do the cake cutting and the garter toss and the bouquet toss, and all the traditional things.  Its just going to be small and cheap. =)

The bleeding through chick!.. Marta something or another. November 5, 2007

This picture (above) is awesome! lol that’s how she was the entire concert! She was creepy! and then she’d throw her hair around, she puts on a good show! lol… she reminds me of a vampire =) …I read too many vampire books… lol

I’m not exactly sure which one is her… but I THINK she’s the one in the blue…

We were talking about how she’s probably ugly up close, but she was hot from far away, but no, she’s not too bad up close! lol

And this one must be old cause her hair is way short.

Rylee’s first concert!!! November 4, 2007

So Amanda was going to go to the HIM concert with her friend Melinda, and I already knew this, but then Melinda couldn’t go so she asked me to go with her, but then at the last second something came up and she couldn’t go anymore, so I had 2 tickets to the HIM concert. So.. I invited my cousin and my unborn neice (I know she’s not my neice, but that’s what she is!) It was a lot of fun! First the most horrible band played! Bleeding Through, which I guess if you like constant screaming it is okay.. I guess they’d probably be good to listen to if you’re pissed off, but overall I really just didn’t like them much. BUT the keyboardist was a chick and she was hot! lol She was kinda creepy throwing her hair all around and what not, but she was way hot! lol and she was making creepy faces at the audience it was funny! In this picture below, you can kind of see the keyboardist with her head down and crouched low on her keyboard lol she did that a lot. but the light is right behind her so its kinda hard to see, and its really small, and I’m sorry, but none of the pictures are that good.

Then when HIM came out, I actually felt ashamed to be in his presence! Like I can’t even amount to the dirt he walks on! hahaha he was so amazing! And I was so surprised that I knew every song that he played!! Sad though everytime he talked his voice was so low that you couldn’t understand anything he was saying. He told a story or something about Queen Matifa or something weird like that lol I don’t know but that was the only word that we could make out of it lol (not to mention all the stupid girls screaming while he was talking! Talk about rude!!!) Anyway, everyone was throwing their bras and panties at him! lol he just made a pile up there on stage! It was pretty funny! =) And someone threw a scarf at him and it was purple and sparkly and he picked it up and smelled it and then put it on. LOL! And he is not hot by any means, but oh my god he has sex appeal!!! He had a cigarette the entire time. Oh and someone flipped him off and he just gave him a look like “are you serious?” lol it was kinda funny. And he wore this nice suit, he was just amazing! I really don’t know WHAT I was expecting, but his voice really does sound the way it does on his CD’s!!!! lol

So that was it. That was Rylee’s first concert! =) Chance said she was squirmin the whole time, and I felt her kick for the first time!! =D So someday when I have a couple bucks, I’m going to buy her a HIM onesy! =)

rearranged October 29, 2007

I rearranged my house yesterday =) It turned out really good. I’m just at the point where I just don’t want to live there anymore so in order to make it another 6 months I needed to move stuff. =P It turned out really cute though. I turned Tyson’s room into an office and my room into OUR room. =) So that everything is both of ours. Yes, yes, I know its weird that we’ve had seperate bedrooms for all this time, but neither of our beds are big enough lol we just drive each other crazy and neither of us sleep well. SOOO…. since we don’t have the money for a king size bed, I put both of our beds together creating the biggest bed you will ever see!!! its a queen and a full put together (much much larger than a california king bed) Its way nice, and I brought the living room TV into our room, and then everything else is in the office. =)  Its nice, so now our bed could fit probably like 10 people in it! lol, and we sleep comfortably together =) Its pretty awesome, except for now there are only hard folding chairs in the office. We’re going to get Tyson’s parent’s popazons, there are 3 of them, but for right now we got nothin! =P I wanted to move the couch in there, but it’d be impossible to take the couch down that narrow hallway and then turn it into that bedroom. Oh well.. the popazons will be enough and then the living room wont be too bare. =)

I’m in love with Edward!! … Twilight October 28, 2007

 Gerrett Hedlund doesn’t have anything to do with the  book, but that’s how I pictured Edward in the book, even thought that’s really not how he was described lol… he actually has gold eyes (or black) and brownish blonde hair, not black, but Gerrett Hedlund in Euragon was hot and that’s how I pictured him lol! (just with different eyes)

So I read the book Twilight, and I read it in probably about 24 hours… it took 2 days (but obviously I didn’t read all 48 hours) It went by too fast =( *sigh* It was just so good though I couldn’t put it down! I couldn’t help myself! But honestly it was the best book I have ever read! And the way they described Edward made me fall so in love with him!! lol

 Okay first off, if you’ve never read this book and plan to, stop reading right here! I’m not writing this to give away the ending, I’m writing this so I can rethink the book! So, instead of reading this entry, go read this book! It is amazing!

The book starts out with Bella boarding the plane from Pheonix Arizona to Forks Washington (a small gloomy little town that is always raining) to go live with her dad.  She obviously wasn’t happy about the move, but later in the book it explains that her mom remarried to a baseball player that was always traveling and she wanted to be with him, so Bella wanted her mom to be happy so she moved to Forks with her dad so that her mom could spend more time with Philip.

Bella was never popular in Peonix and really didn’t fit in at all, but when she moved to Forks, everyone loved her, and she had 3 guys with obsessive crushes on her. She noticed a family that sat alone together in the cafeteria and she was interested. They were all ver pale with puplish circles around their eyes,  and all extremely attractive! Edward ended up sitting next to her in Biology right after lunch, and at first he acted really wierd, he clenched his fists and was stiff next to her and his eyes were black, and then he just didn’t show up at school at all for a week after that. Then finally he came back and he just pretended she wasn’t there. Ignored her completely. Then after one of the boys that was obsessed with her asked her to go to the dance with him and she turned him down, and THEN Edward started talking to her. He just made small talk and then told her that he can’t aviod her anymore, and that they shouldn’t be friends. Later in the book he explains that he was jealous! So after 2 more boys asked her to the dance and she declined all of them by using the excuse she’s going to Seatle, Edward asked if he could go to Seatle with her and she said yes.

Bella was getting our of her car one snowy day and was looking at the chains that her dad had put on her tires when a van was loosing control and heading straigh toward her, she saw it coming and she saw Edward standing accross the parking lot in horror, and then he pulled her out of the way and saved her, but it was near impossible! Because he was untouched and he would have had to lift up the van, and there was a dent in one of the cars from his shoulders. He said that he was next to her the whole time.

Bella went to a party at the beach with her friends and met one of her old friends (her dad’s best friend’s son) and he told her the legend of the Cullins family being Vampires and that they weren’t allowed on the reservation cause they were enemies to the warewolves.  So it all started to make sense..

Bella went on a girls night out with some of her girl friends out of town and she was just going to walk down to a book store, but ended up getting lost and being followed by a couple boys hearding her to another 2 boys, finanlly she got trapped and they were surrounding her when Edward pulled up and she jumped in the car and he was fuming! This is when she asks him if the legend was true and he confesses to being a vampire. He also tells her that he can read people’s minds but not hers. And he said that he wanted to kill those boys because of what they were thinking. He confessed that he had been following her because she has too many near death experiences and he wanted to be there to save her, and he was following her by reading other people’s minds and when she went off on her own he followed her scent and then he found the boys and saw her face in their minds and finally found her. Eventually he told her that it was extremely dangerous for them to be friends because her scent was so good and was too tempting!

The Seatle trip that they planned was supposed to be sunny and he couldn’t be out in the sun, not because he burns, but he wants to show her what happens, and they just can’t be in public. So they go hiking up to a meadow and when he steps out in the sun he gets all sparkly! =) Anyway, they just talked for hours and a very long chapter… =P and for a minute he snaps saying that he’s such a good preditor cause he’s attractive, humans are attracted to his good looks, all the way to the smell of his breath! and then he broke off a 2 foot branch and threw it against another tree and then he calmed down and he told her that he could never, and would never hurt her, and then they just cuddled and he explained his reactions to everything, like the reason he acted weird when they first met was cause she smelled so delicious and then he tried to run away and live on his own but he couldn’t abandon his family so he came back etc.. On their way back to the truck he gave her a piggy back down the mountain and showed her his running skills which was very very very fast! like 100 + mph and then she felt really woozy and after she started to feel better he kissed her and she got really into the kiss and opened her mouth and breathed, which was bad cause he smelled her and he had to pull away.

The next day she introduced him to her dad and then went to go meet his family (which also was dangerous cause they are all vampires) but they all loved her (except for Rosalie, but she just avoids her) anyway, at school they’re all brothers and sisters, but at home they’re actually all couples Emmet and Rosalie are married, and Alice and Jasper are married, and then of coarse Dr Cullins and Esme (the mom and dad) Edward was the only one that was alone, so they were all happy that he found Bella. They invited Bella to watch them play baseball the next day cause it was a thunderstorm (they had to play in a thunderstorm becasue when they hit the ball it made a huge sound like thunder) Anyway, Alice has visions (kinda like Edward can read minds, not everyone can do it) and she sees that they were going to have visitors, other vampires and they were running toward them about 3 minutes away and they wanted to play. This was bad cause they had Bella with them, and there wasn’t enough time to run. So they came up and talked but when a breeze blew they all smelled her. The one guy crowched down like he wanted to attack but then Edward defended her (growled… lol) and after they left Edward, Bella, Alice, and Emmet got in the car and sped away from town going 120 mph. Edward explained that he was a tracker and that he was going to kill Bella and was going to hunt her tonight. (Edward of coarse knew this cause he could hear his thoughts) So they thought up a plan and Bella went home packed a bag and told her dad that she broke up with Edward and that she wanted nothing to do with this stupid town and was going back to her mom, leaving her dad crushed! Then they went back up to the house and Bella and Esme swiched clothes to thow off the scent and then Esme and Rosalie took Bella’s car going west,  Jasper, Alice, and Bella took a Mercedes (they had like 5 really nice expensive fast cars casue they liked going fast) and they went to Arizona,  and then the rest of them went North so the tracker would chase them north, and the chick would chase the others west and then Bella hid. Eventually the tracker figured it out and went to Arizona and went to her house and found the message Bella left her mom hoping she wouldn’t come home from Florida early, and then the tracker called Bella he had her mom trapped and he made her say certain things so that she didn’t make the others suspicious. He told her to go to the house and then call the number he left by the phone and to come alone. (Alilce already had a vision and saw the room and Bella dead) so when they were at the airport waiting for Edward she ditched them and got a cab to her house and then called the number and he told her to go to the dance studio around the corner, she went and then she saw one of her home video’s on the TV, he didn’t really have her mom but he did have her voice! Tricky little jerk! Anyway, he set up a video camera and gave a speech about Edward watching the video tape and avenging her death and how it was too easy, yada yada yada, and that he wanted to do it in the dance studio cause of the mirros so he could get the whole room in the video camera, and then he attacked her, throwing her up against the mirror splitting her head open and breaking the mirror, and then stepped on her leg breaking it, and then she was unconcious but still kind of there, and she heard Edward (but she thought it was an Angel, and she thought she was dead) Then she woke up because her hand was on fire, and she was screeming and then they noticed that she had been bitten so someone had to suck out the venum, and what should have been impossible, Edward sucked out the venum and then stopped. They took her to the hospital and said that Edward and his dad came to talk some sense into her and she was going up the stairs to their hotel room and she fell down and flew through the window (Alice and Jasper set up the evidence)  Edward tells her that they shouldn’t be together especially after the danger he put her in, but he’d stay with her for as long as it made her happy. And she wants him to bite her so that she becomes a vampire also, but he wont do it, but Alice has already had a vision that she’d be one of them someday, but Edward doesn’t want it to happen. In the end Edward tricks Bella into going to prom with him and then during the dance they went outside and she brought up again that she wants him to change her into a vampire and he put his lips to her neck and he says “do you still want me to?” and she was a little tense but she said yes, and then he sat up again and he says “right here right now?” or something to that extent and she says yes and then he puts his lips to her neck again. That was it. That was the ending! It was so cute though! I already know he didn’t bite her in the end cause I’ve already started the next book (Just a chapter, I have to wait for Chance to finish reading it though) 

 Anyway, I hope no one actually read that! lol Like I said, I just wanted to rethink the whole book. Sad…. now it really feels over =( *sigh* I’m still in love with Edward, and this next book I’m not going to read so fast… I hope. I’m going to have to limit myself by like reading no more than a chapter a day! Instead of the entire 600 page book in 1 day!!! *scowl* I’ll let you know how it goes.

I’m so happy =D October 22, 2007

Last night Tyson came home! I missed him so much!!! He came in and we just hugged for like 20 minutes, and then we kissed for another 20 minutes… and that’s where my story will stop lol I missed him so much! Actually more than I thought I’d miss him, I mean I knew I’d miss him but I was so happy to see him I almost cried!! (I did a little) And then he slept with me and we just cuddled the rest of the night. He got home at midnight so I’m kinda tired today =P I can’t wait to get off work though so I can spend the rest of the day with him.

I spent the weekend at Haley’s up in Logan. It was fun. =) She bought me so many dinners =/ Well everytime we ate at ihop it was free, and then she bought my dinner at the Olive Garden, and she bought me ice cream. Anywho… we bought matching sunglasses (and we already have our matching jackets) and we went to a photo booth in the mall and she spent like $15 on pictures! lol luckily she waitresses so she always has $1’s lol So I have a bunch of those little pictures now =P They’re cute. =) I’ll probably scan all fo them and put them up on my myspace or something. We didn’t really do anything except watch a bunch of movies and go shopping. I got my jewelry for my wedding I just need a bracelet. Any way, it was  a good weekend, but I’m just way glad Tyson is back! =)

Tagged.. October 10, 2007

This is one of those forward thingies… I’m supposed to tag someone, but the people who read this I don’t think have blogs, so you can just read mine and enjoy =) Its just 10 random facts about yourself:

1. I got into playing Runescape with Tyson. =) Its kind of a boring game, but when we play together its way fun! And I can change my characters clothes and hair however much I want to! lol.. she’s a little skank, she wears a pink mini skirt and pink belly shirt and pink boots! lol And then Tyson’s character is rich and he’s building a house that we both can live in (our characters of coarse) haha. Its pretty fun.

2. This is the laptop that I want! Well I think the one that I want is newer and a lot shinier, but basically the screen flips around and lays flat and its touch screen.

3. I love playing video games, but I’m really bad with it… cause I don’t like not finishing things, so I’ll sit down and play till I beat the game! I’ve gone through so many DS games already! =/ I’m the same way with books, so I just don’t read haha!

4. Okay, did anyone know they were making a nano and a shuffle iphone? That’s weird… I think I just want the regular one, the big one, but anyway, these are the phones that I want. I’ve wanted the first one forEVER! and its actually more expensive than the iphone! But I like them both.

5. My fetish. I LOVE office supplies! I can go to the store and just spend hours in the office/school supply isle! And you should see my desk! It looks something like the second picture! lol I LOVE post it notes and pens! =)

6. I’m a morning person. I go to bed early, and wake up early, even when I don’t have to work. I think the latest I ever sleep in is 8:00. When I sleep in until 9 it feels like my day is wated. lol Honestly, I haven’t been to bed after 10:00 in a really really really long time! Probably about a year. And normally I got to bed around 8:00. I know I have an earlier curfew than most high schoolers! lol but I like it. I’m more awake and alert throughout the day when I go to bed early and wake up early. =)

7. I wish I had more money to spend on shoes.. I LOVE ballet flats! I have a tone of them!.. but not enough haha.. I have to wash them all the time though cause they get really stinky cause I wear no socks… =/ And out of all the shoes that I do have, I don’t own a single pair of heals! =P

8. I love penguines! They are my favorite animal. =) We went to the zoo and they were so cute!

9. I honestly don’t know what I would do without google! I think I’d be lost and confused! lol =P

10. Cookie dough ice cream is my weekness.

11. Christmas is my least favorite holiday. I mean I love it, and I love the presents and giving presents, and it has a good feel, I love the spirit of Christmas… blah blah blah.. but, its a crappy time of year, I hate snow, I hate being cold, and everything always goes bad during Christmas time! All of the sad times in my life happened around Christmas, and I just get really bad seasonal depression.

12. I have really bad bridal fever, I think everyone knows that that’s all I talk about, and poor Tyson has to deal with me! lol He puts in his 2 words here and there, and then I bite his head off cause this is how I want it and this is how its gonna be! lol Poor guy! lol

13. I LOVE LOVE LOVE House!!! Its my favorite show right now. I just really love medical shows! I thnk that’s partially why I want to be a doctor, even though I know its not going to be like my favorite shows. lol Oh, and secretly… for an old guy, Dr House is really hot! lol …(he’s the one at the bottom holding the coffee.. the one that walks with a cane.)

14. I got to go with Chance to her gender ultrasound (Its a boy btw) =D It was like the coolest thing EVER!! Before she was just pregnant, but now, after seeing him, she has a tiny little baby living inside of her!! lol It was so cool! I mean I KNOW what pregnancy is, but it doesn’t actually click ya know? She just gets bigger and in 9 months she’ll have a baby right? Well she actually already HAS a baby! she’s just the only person who can carry it! lol its just really weird to think about it! He already has a gender, a personality, everything! He’s an actual human being, just a really tiny human being living inside my cousin! lol

Okay I know I went WAY over 10… lol I just googled a bunch of pictures and I guess I got more than I needed. =P

Tag: You don’t have to do this, but I was tagged and that’s why I did this.. and I’m bored. lol but anyway, if you don’t have a blog and I tag you you can always do it on myspace.. but it doesn’t matter.
Amanda,
Haley,
Paige,
Chance,
Mary.

The official bridesmaid dress! FINALLY this shopping is OVER!!!! October 2, 2007

Okay, so here’s what’s happening.  These are the dresses I’m going to use.  I’m just going to order 4 of this dress and then alter 2 of them, if I have to do it myself! Hopefully I’ll find someone who at least owns a sewing maching though. Anyway, it is $67.99… so $70 (an extra dollar to help with shipping) And then I’ll find some shoes eventually too. (I’ll keep it for sure under $30, but I’m shooting for $20) By the way, I just did that second dress on paint… if you couldn’t tell =) haha.